Thinking out loud!

this past week has made me think! more than anything!...he got me thinking.

of how good it feels for someone to be genuine with you. To submit to the awkwardness and transfer it to happiness!..he taught me to rely on another source of love.
another thing i hav learnt leading up to the new year is that new beginnings can start anytime ..its not scheduled you just have to wait...AND NOT WISH!... Its amazing how much time i spent comtemplating life in general but its easier then that. i must admit that i do have everything!..i have beautiful friends..that care about me..but i have him to care and to tell him the things that are sooo silllyy...soo silly for other ppl to hear but to him.~ thats conversation
he lets me be stupid. ... .. sometimes thats the remedy..letting go and having someone to love you when you're letting go.
i have imperfections..he has imperfections..but the imperfections of his character makes him perfect. my imperfections show through everythng...but its not bad

finding him showed me to be natural.. even if he doesnt like my make up :D...still im not perfect

scratch that...i didnt find him....i didnt look for him..i wasnt eager or searching ...but i was determined.....his eye contact tells a beautiful tale....:')

Things to talk about

i remember one of the those irritating conversations with someone one day when they are talking about their skool friends or their life or their weight..or their bf/gf and its amazing how many times i have said 'cool' when they had just finished saying 'my bf dumped me'..
When someone starts talking about school in the holidays you know just to stop listening. When someone is talking about evolution or science my brain switches off..
the worst one was one day while working in a chemist when someone started giving explicit details about where they had just formed a red rash and asking me how to treat it..:S ...
Usually old people on buses are really bored most of the time so they start talking to you even if they arent speaking english... or like retarded people in bankstown station ..sticking something in your face that they just fetched outta the bin...:S

heheh many experiences when arabic people come for visits and practically dig my grave for me while im trying to explain in my very bad arabic that i dont actually know how to speak arabic.

these things are typical..but they are parts of life and being a bitch doesnt always solve everything...so i gotta put up with things even if i look like a retard trying

xx...manda